I don’t know many people that start a sentence that way, except maybe in their heads. It’s in my head today because someone I consider to be a good friend told me they are moving away at the end of the month. We’re friends so of course I wish her the best. I’ll go so far to say that in my heart of hearts I think this move will bring her fun and success beyond her wildest dreams and yet a little piece of me says “but”.

I think this is a common experience between friends or even siblings when one is taking a step that leaves the other behind…new jobs, promotions, weddings, babies etc. Even though we wish our friend or sibling the best there’s a little piece of us that has that nagging “but”. The but generally amounts to “I wish things didn’t have to change.”

Back to my case, I wish my friend more happiness than her heart can hold. I know she’s had a rough patch for a bit so I know a change of scenery will be good. Yet, I haven’t made many friends here so part of me is not only sad to see her leaving but sad for the loss of her immediate presence. Sure we’ll talk on the phone and visit when we can but it’s not the same as being able to take off for lunch or hang out at a festival. I’ll even admit there’s probably a twinge of jealously at all the cool adventures she’ll have without me. This is just human nature, the yin and yang of things. I don’t remember much about high school science but I do remember one of the laws : For every action there is an equal and opposite reaction.  I also don’t remember what that applies to specifically but I apply it to life. Just look at the crowds in any casino…while somone is hitting the jackpot, someone is crapping out!

Anyway, to my friend I wish you an abundance of health, wealth and happiness and ask that you please forgive my selfish little “but”.

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